I wish i could get close to people easily, although a long time ago i…

I wish i could get close to people easily, although a long time ago i gave up with the simple fact of socializing, i find conversations overwhelming and unpleasant, i don't have friends but they always insist that i should get a partner or a friend... It bothers me, i am a particularly lonely person, not because i sound edgy or depressed, i simply lost the courage to meet new people. Also my room is more comfortable and my bed cozy (˶>⩊<˶)